However, he asserts that some films may still end up surprising him, thanks to an exceptionally talented crew. “When you are working with a great director or a brilliant editor who irons out a lot of your mistakes, sometimes the scenes work better. They will pull you out when you are watching the film and get you to watch the story as it is instead of focusing on yourself. You also get to zoom out a bit to get that perspective and look at the scenes objectively.”
While he may have his own share of insecurities, Mathew is mindful to not undervalue what he has managed to do in his career. “After Moothon (2019) came out, I remember thinking if I died today, I would die as somebody who did Moothon (laughs). So what I have done in my career really matters to me and this is my identity. But I do not think I am successful. I don’t know if I can tell you exactly why I say that. One of the reasons is that I set some really difficult targets for myself. So, what I end up doing always feels inadequate. There are so many talented people around me who are doing great work, so I can’t help but hold myself to the same standards that they are achieving. I am happy about how I do my job today as compared to how I was doing it three years back. But I can also see where I want to get to and I am still not there. When I get there, I will be happy,” Mathew concludes.
